Monday, February 27, 2012
I am ok!!!!!!!!
As you all know i have been debating that i wanted and needed to tell my mother about my abuse from her husband. Well this passed five days we had a revival in our church and it was incredible. God moved in so many ways and He spoke to me. ( Yes I am a Christian) God told me that what i had been through, all the hurt and pain i had to go through for a reason. It was to make me stronger and make me a better person. I am strong. I know that He has healed my wounds and my pain that i had endured for so many years. The abuse didn't last through all these years but the memories and pain from it had made me suffer all this time. I know i help encourage others through my blog and my story but i couldn't admit to myself or others that I needed help myself. I thought that I was ok. But I wasn't. It took me a long time to realize that i needed help. I finally got help one by talking to RAINN online hotline and also by my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He healed me for good. I no longer feel sorry for myself. I FORGAVE MYSELF. I FORGAVE MY ABUSERS. NO LONGER WILL I ALLOW MY PAIN TO CONTROL ME. NO MORE. I AM HEALED. I WILL CONTINUE TO SHARE MY STORY. I AM FREE!!!!!!!!
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Tara, I am so proud of you for seeking help when you needed it. It is so hard to admit to ourselves and others when we need help (it took me almost 10 years!), but it is so very important. I am glad that you courageously took this next step. Congratulations! xx
ReplyDeleteThank you. I thought i was ok but i guess not. But it was good to talk to someone about it. I feel better. I know i am healed. I am ok
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ReplyDeleteI am beyond excited for you!! I totally know that feeling of freedom through God! He also told me to surrender all of my pain to him that the burden of my past was too much to carry by myself. Also just a couple of weeks ago as I was writing my Faith and Forgiveness post, I said out loud to each of my attackers and I said I FORGIVE YOU! Whew... It's God amazing how he helps you along and frees you from yourself?!! Thank you for sharing this because sometimes I need to be reminded that He is always here for us. Praise God and thank you again for sharing!
Your welcome Yes God is good all the time and He brings us out of the rough times we are dealing with. He allows us to go through some things to help make us stronger and teach us to lean on Him when we need to the most. Some people forget to lean on God and carry the burdens on themselves but God doesnt want us to do that. He wants us to run to Him and praise Him in the storm. We have to trust in Him and be patient with the things He is doing in our lives.
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ReplyDeleteAmen Tara. Appreciate you sharing this post and how God has and continues to set you free! I too am in that process! B-t-w, I believe in revival for our church! Blessings.
ReplyDeleteThank you and your welcome. I believe in revival. It was an amazing thing. Gods anointing was upon us. But like i said He spoke to me and i am free from everything. :) No more feeling sorry for myself I am a survivor
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