Friday, April 13, 2012

Facebook!!!

As some of you may know as I have written on my twitter, I was debating on whether or not to post a status saying I am a survivor. The reason why I didn't want to or was ready to post it is because not everyone on there which is mostly family knows about what happened to me and if i were to put it on my facebook than somehow it would get to my mom because of my family thats on there.

Well................................. I actually posted a status last night on behalf of Sexual Assault Awareness Month #SAAM, that I am a survivor and that our Lord Jesus is healing me through all of it. I do not want to sound conceded but I am very proud of myself because it has taken alot of me to do that. I was really nervous but I CANT KEEP RUNNING. I CANT KEEP HIDING THE TRUTH.  I want to be able to be more open about what happened to me. So i just wanted to give you goes a little update.

THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING MY JOURNEY AND MY BLOG. I AM VERY GRATEFUL FOR ALL OF YOU. GOD BLESS YOU.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

My mother is in denial!!!!!

Hey everyone. Hope everyone has enjoyed their Easter this past weekend. Well today's post is going to be able my mother. Not so much but the thing I want to discuss is that I know I have wrote previously that my mother doesn't know about my stepfather abusing me but she knows that I was abused by my uncle. Well I really didn't lie about it but she does know but like I said she is in denial. The thing is that when my sister first came out and told our mother that she was abused by our stepfather, she and my sister also asked me if I was abused. I did try to tell her and when I tried to tell her and talk my mother just shut me up. After that I never really tried to tell her because I knew she would not believe me. SO I did tell her but she was not wanting to listen and that in a way still hurts because she is the one person that is suppose to be there and believe you no matter what. But I have come to realize that she is never going to accept it and I have to just move on. But one thing that I have to say is that I am very proud of myself. I am not ashamed to be a survivor. I am not ashamed to keep using my voice to speak out. I am ok with who ever wants to see this and read this and be blessed. I know God is helping me through my healing journey. I know I am healing. I feel free. I am no longer a victim BUT a survivor.

There are a few reasons why I am writing this post but one of the reasons why is because even though that one person does not want to believe you, there are many others who will believe you and help you get the help you need to begin your healing journey. You can even begin the way I did and start a blog and share your story. Since I began to speak out last year I know I have gained my strength back and my voice. You can gain your voice back too if you just share your story with others rather its online or just going to someone you trust and tell them. Someone will believe you.

 I BELIEVE YOU. I WILL ALWAYS BELIEVE. I KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO NOT HAVE THAT PERSON BY YOUR SIDE. YOU WILL MAKE IT THROUGH. I CAN GUARANTEE THAT. SEEK OUT ORGANIZATIONS LIKE RAINN AND THE JOYFUL HEART FOUNDATION FOUNDED BY MARISKA HARGITAY WHO IS MY INSPIRATION AND A ROLE MODEL TO MANY SURVIVORS. THERE ARE OTHER ORGANIZATIONS AS WELL. STAY BLESSED AND BE BLESSED. GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

RJ Helton - Delicate Child



We can relate to this song. But we are survivors and we can fight together. We are no longer a victim. We can have our lives back if we choose to.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

SAAM

Hey guys. Well its April and its Sexual Assault Awareness Month. So if you are on twitter please follow the following organizations that have to do with Sexual Assault:
-The Joyful Heart Foundation by Mariska Hargitay @TheJHF @Mariska
-Rainn @RAINN01
- National Sexual Violence Resource Center @NSVRC
- Natasha's Justice Project  @NatashasJustice

The Following are people who are either survivors or supporters and are also spreading the word on Sexual Abuse:
@OnlyWithConsent, @teri_hatcher73, @NatashasJustice, @NatashaSimone, @KadeeStrick @TeamStrick @Char_Coop4eva


And i have many more on my twitter page if you want to help get involved. Please help these organizations to spread the word on violence on women and children and even men. Lets end the silence. Lets end the abuse. Lets help people speak out and get help they deserve.