So to all my readers and twitter followers, you all know about my abuse. Well even though i sit here and post and encourage others to speak out and not let what happened to us get the best of us and keep us down, i myself wasnt really taking my own advice. Yes i spoke out and shared my story many times but i was still holding on to the pain and hurt and not fully letting it go so i can heal. Yes its going to be hard to let it go but if we keep shutting ourselves away from people and hiding what happened to us we are not going to get full healing. Like Mariska said in the one episode of SVU " True healing comes when you bear witness meaning that when you speak out, others can hear you and your story can touch them and they will have courage to speak out and that in turn will help you heal because you know that your helping others deal with their pain while your dealing with yours.
I wasnt trying to contradict myself here. I was just as afraid as must of you of letting my guard down and allowing myself to get hurt again and i hate feeling rejected. I want to be able to be with a guy and not be afraid of getting hurt again. I dont want to push others away especially if they are special to me and have a purpose in my life. We cant go through life thinking that everyone we meet will hurt us. Its not like that. We have to get over that fear. Yes we may get heart broken but in the end that will make us stronger. Even in the midst of darkness there is light. And that light is that by us sharing our voices and sharing our stories to others, we can help break the cycle of silence. So many people are afraid of speaking out because of the fear of getting hurt again or our abusers will attack us or our families. But if we seek justice all of that can go away. Again yes there will be moments where we feel that we cant go on but if we just hang on a little longer it will and can get better. My sister helped me figure this out- by us continuing to stay in that moment of our abuse its like we're allowing our abusers to hurt us again and we dont want that at all.
If we continue to use our voices and share our stories we stop giving our abusers glory. By us staying silent, we are hurting ourselves while our abusers are enjoying their lives and acting like nothing happened. But something did happen and now its the time to get through it and stand up together and break free.
WE DECLARE AT THIS MOMENT THAT WE ARE CHOOSING TO BREAK FREE FROM OUR ABUSERS BY SHARING OUR VOICES AND OUR STORIES. WE WILL NO LONGER REMAIN SILENT. WE WILL NO LONGER LET OUR HURT KEEP CONTROL OVER US. WE CHOOSE NOW TO LET IT GO AND RECEIVE FULL HEALING AND ALLOWING OTHERS INTO OUR LIVES TO HELP US GET THROUGH THIS JOURNEY. WE ARE BREAKING THE SILENCE AND BREAKING EVERY ATTACK AGAINST US FOR USING OUR VOICES.
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sometimes it really is easier said than done. I wouldnt consider having times when it's hard to deal contradicting yourself.. it's all part of the healing process- along the way we experience the ups and downs.
ReplyDeleteI tend to have a hard time letting go as i'm afraid to like someone new as im scared that what if there's a chance he'll be abusive ass well, or i'll get hurt.
Keep up the speaking out and the positive outlook!!! Awesome :)
ReplyDeleteThank @Myself and @r33na i know what you mean. Im afraid of letting my guard down and allowing people in because of getting hurt but you know what we keep that fear inside its like we are never going to heal. We cant go through life thinking that everyone is going to hurt us because we cant generalize you know. Not everyone is going to hurt us. We cant let that keep is down.
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