speak out

I just want to say thank you to Mariska Hargitay, the joyful HEART foundation and the survivors i met through the joyful heart facebook page for giving me the strength and courage the speak out. By sharing my story with others survivors shows me im not alone and that even though i was molested and almost raped what i went through is still traumatic and i still deserve to get that healing. Ive said it before that im 23 and it took me ten yrs to speak out about my abuse. Through those ten yrs it was very hard. I was depressed. I wouldnt eat and put myself on a starvation diet which didnt work. I was getting bullied in school and just couldnt take it anymore that i became suicidal. After a while i started cutting myself. Even now at time when i get flashbacks or just when im having a rough time ill try to cut myself again but what does that really do? Nothing really. Stops what your feeling for a second but thats it. Your pain is still there. So i encourage you all to speak out. Its not worth holding it all in.